Space-Probe Feelings

Sep. 17th, 2017 10:08 am
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I just have a lot of feelings about Cassini, and NASA, and JPL, and just... science.  Even though things are so, so shitty right now, Cassini survived decades (and NASA advocated and maintained support for Cassini for decades) to provide incredible amounts of information that might have near-future application, and perhaps not.   But it's science, and eventually that information will come in handy and just... science for knowledge's sake without immediate profitable application makes me so hopeful that we may get through this.

Thanks, NASA.  Thanks, Cassini. 

Fish recipes?

Sep. 15th, 2017 03:19 pm
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My dad is a medical studies junkie-- he uses the studies to acquire new habits, like stopping smoking, or exercising more, or doing brain games.  He's in a diet study right now that's not much out of line with how I already cook (Mediterranean-ish, heavy on fruits and vegs) but they are being very strict about fish three times a week.  (Not shellfish-- fish.  It'd be easy if I could just do mussels or shrimp or scallops for one out of three nights.) 

The problem is, I really, really hate non-oily fish.  Tuna?  Salmon?  Cod?  Monkfish?  Bluefish? Skate?  Lemme at it.  But Dad really only tolerates salmon and cod, and he can't abide fresh tuna or the other oily fishes (we both hate swordfish, IDK).  Living in Boston means I do have access to good white fish but... I hate white fish, and I'm doing the cooking, so I feel like I can be a little selfish here.  He likes mackerel, but it's very seasonal and not something we'd cook regularly.  (He also likes pickled herring but because pickled herring is an Issues Trigger for me, that's out of the question.  Yeah.  I'm making this harder for myself, I know.)  When Dad does buy white fish, I tend to cook it with lots of middle eastern spices/flavors, so that the dressing/relish overpowers the lack of flavor & texture-- but I can't drench everything in green olives and preserved lemon and parsley and oregano or cilantro three nights a week.  

Are their white-ish fishes you like that have some good flavor/firm texture and that won't kill my grocery bill buying fresh, wild caught, Whole Paycheck-style?  I am OK with halibut and arctic char, but tilapia, hake or flounder is so mushy that I can't get it down.  Striper?  Trout? Canned sardines in some kind of salad or mousse? Particular frozen fish from Trader Joe's or Whole Foods?  There's a reliable source of smoked trout that I can put on a leafy green salad with root vegs that he likes, but ... what else?  I am hoping to build a good half-dozen or more dishes so that I don't have to think too much about it, or some suggestions for old-reliable sauces and salsas that are good toppings I can make ahead.

Any reliable recipes, cookbooks, or websites you like for this kind of thing?  (And yes, I am mindful of the Monterey Bay recommendations about wild-caught, long line caught, and endangered fish varieties...)  

Thank you!

More jobs stuff

Sep. 15th, 2017 10:46 am
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Decisions, decisions:  

I have a final interview Monday at a well-known nonprofit doing an HR Director job in a specific subset of HR that I would really, really like-- and three people I worked with at other points are already working there and I serendipitously ran into them while I was walking wtih the nice HR Director who was touring me around.  So-- that would be wonderful, and I think that I could do a lot of good work there in a well-defined role with a boss who seems like she would be easy to work with.  It would involve roughly an hour commute, which I could probably do on the T, and I am told by the recruiter who got me in the door that they can meet my pay needs.  They have an extremely long-tenured work force-- and I've only known/heard of one person who had a negative experience there, and I don't know all the details in order to assess if I might encounter the same issues.  

On the other hand, there is the possibility of a vague, undefined job in my own city that came about completely randomly-- but it has still been super vague what I would do, and I am feeling once-burned twice-shy about not having a description for what I'd be doing and to whom I would report, and so I am feeling less than 100% about taking a job that is lacking in details.  I suppose I could just write up a proposal and have them adopt it (they have acknowledged they need an HR operations and policy person) but I am (perhaps foolishly) feeling like it's inappropriate for me to write my own job description-- or that it's hypocritical, or something, because one of the things I'd be doing once I was on the job would be nailing down job descriptions and making things more regimented, so that people are less politically-driven and more performance-oriented.  The general outline of things they need my help for are right up my alley, but there are aspects I would need to learn PDQ-- including all the ins and outs of the various union contracts.  I am also worried that I am too much of a straight shooter, and that I will be uncomfortable and feel unethical dealing with the practicalities of local politics.  I think the mayor and his team are doing important work-- I just don't know if I'm the right person.  I think I am being too formal and cautious about the city job, but after I leapt before looking this last time, I am extremely nauseous about the idea of ending up someplace where again I would be overworked, underpaid, and without the authority or resources I need to see things through.

I didn't get the other three positions I interviewed, for, though, one because I was overqualified, one because one of the interviewers and I rubbed each other the wrong way, and one because they went with someone with a few more years' experience-- all of which are reasonable reasons and not "blameworthy" on my part, but I'm beginning to feel more bummed and less neutral/OK with those decisions.  I am therefore very nervous that if I am too cautious and don't take the city job, I will have to start from scratch all over again.  Since my unemployment is still being "reviewed" because one of my former employers hasn't confirmed wages yet, I am extra nervous, because I am starting to run out of money pending unemployment kicking in.

I don't want to take the city job and then say "nope, sorry, got this other job instead," though-- I know it's OK and people do it all the time, but it bugs me.  I am worried if I say "I am not ready to make a decision yet," though, that I will shoot myself in the foot and they'll change their mind about wanting me.

Argh.  Fuckity.  Etc. 

Working, part 2

Sep. 11th, 2017 02:25 pm
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(Apologies for the radio silence, I have been coming to terms with work and unemployment things.)

Thoughts on working, with family & mental health musings... )

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